It has been months since I last updated this site and no, I have absolutely not abandoned it
It is still alive, well, and running, although my last graduate semester in Structural Engineering at USC has certainly kept me preoccupied. One other thing that has kept me preoccupied: Film Applications!
Yes, I have officially done it. As recent as this past September, I was still ambivalent about whether I was going to apply to film school or not. After all, in just a few months, my life would be set with a prestigious Master’s degree in Structural Engineering and a possible well-paying job prospect. Sure, I had nothing to worry about! Until late one night at 2 a.m., I was wrestling around in my bed covers, agonizing over my inability to fall asleep. Something was keeping me up and it was when I realized it was time to make a final decision: Was I going to apply to film school or not? Film deadlines were approaching within 2 or 3 months and I knew that this was my final moment of truth. I wanted to be happy. I had to pursue my passion.
I recall a major breakdown I had last fall of 2007 where I found myself struggling in my engineering classes. Night after night, I would be staring at numbers inches from the page, skyrocketing my eye prescriptions, scrawling across bleak pages of mindless calculations with left-hander smudge marks on my hand, while sitting in my sweat-drenched pajamas. I was crashing as I found myself constantly mired in existential doubt. Why in the hell was I doing what I was doing?
I was not happy and I was seriously considering dropping out of the program and enrolling straight to film school for the spring 2008 term. I had toured The Los Angeles Film School, a decently-reputed school in downtown Los Angeles that offers admissions on a seasonal basis. I had also spoken with an admissions representative who told me I would most likely be admitted if I applied; Yes, me, a student with a bachelor’s degree in civil engineering, pursuing his master’s in structural engineering. Interesting. Finally, after a few long days of meticulous musings, I realized I was out of my mind. I was more terrified about my future than I should have been and knew that I needed to take this journey one step at a time. Sure, I digged myself into this mess and I knew at that moment that I needed to dig myself out. However, when you dig yourself into a problem, that problem needs to be solved before you pursue your next problem. I made the commitment to pursue a master’s degree in structural engineering and I wasn’t going to give up. I needed to finish it.
The truth is, though, I never did give up my passion for filmmaking. In fact, this has been the plan all along. When I chose to complete my master’s degree at USC, I merely postponed my plans for film school by a year. So here I am. Fall 2008. And I have stuck with the plan and have officially applied to 6 top ten film schools:
1. New York University
2. University of Southern California
3. University of California, Los Angeles
4. Columbia University
5. Florida State University
6. New York Film Academy
How many civil engineers do you know of who have done the same
So basically the past few months, I’ve been busy writing material for these applications, coming up with treatments, film scenarios, dialogue scenes, and various other creative projects. My final application for Columbia was mailed last Tuesday. Now it is time to wait it out for a few months until hopefully one of those giant envelopes comes in the mailbox.
There is one final note I’d like to mention. Follow your dream, but make sure it’s a good one.
PS Yes, it is 2:30 in the morning and my writing is getting damn choppy. Gah, I hate using the words “went” and “got”, all because of a writing rule from my 9th grade English teacher. I also hate ending a sentence on a short note (like this) or starting a disjointed sentence (like this). It’s far too late and my writing is getting horribuller and horribuller by the second! I am not thinking straight and I need to stop. Seriously. Bye.








